I'm Not Sure What I've Just Done

I think this is that moment that most successful couples have at some point - going back to live with the parents, in a basement of some sorts.

It’s a recurring story.. you know the one of going back to live at your parents, or at your partner’s parents.. in a basement.. for a while…
It seems like it’s an initiation or some part of the journey/process of successful couples - i’m thinking of Alex & Leila Hormozi for example.

All this didn’t come to my mind until right now. I’m sitting in the basement, at a table that’s in the kitchen of this basement - that i’ve proclaimed my desk; my partner is in the room setting up his 2 big desk-6 computer screen-setup… It’s hot. I feel out of sorts. Tired. We drove for 2 days. From the South of Spain to the South of France - with all our belongings. And I just met his parents for the first time a few hours ago.

Oh we’re in France by the way… my fatherland (motherland is Singapore and I just did that massive Mother Wound healing a few weeks ago). No coincidence that i’m here now, in the fatherland.. shame he died almost 9 years ago now, but I know i’m here for a bigger purpose, and that big things will take place this summer.

It’s really strange being so self-aware, or at least being so conscious of one self. My partner keeps asking me if i’m okay, how i’m feeling etc.. but i’m okay. I’m hyperadaptable (ok I learnt it as a trauma response but it serves). He’s not okay. His parents aren’t okay. People around me aren’t okay… yet.. I truly believe this is part of the process, and that when we’ll be in the BVI living the lifestyle that’s on my vision board, this will all be just a memory.

Even if the whole BVI shabang doesn’t happen, it’ll still be a memory. Temporary. Like everything else.

Anyways.. I wanted to make this longer but i’m really knackered to be quite frank. There’s a lot more to unpack (pun intended) but for now I wanted to share these thoughts and memories. When I do get to wherever i’m supposed to, i’ll love to look back at these writings and smile at them.

Wherever you’re at in your journey, just remember that it’s part of a bigger picture, and probably just a page in the massive saga of your life.

With love,

C